Antediluvian

Spring has sprung
A leak in my paddleboat.
Life was so much simpler,
Before the lake thawed.

All through the deep freeze
I hid in the hoarfrost,
Too brittle to move or
To want any more.

But when you came calling,
With moorhens, meltwater,
I felt myself floating,
I let myself fall.

And soon I was squelching with
Springtime and birdsong,
A warbler soaring,
The waterfall’s roar.

Now everything’s moving,
Thick growing and breeding,
The trees jiggling blossom,
The lake curdling frogspawn,

But sometimes I long for
The stuckness of frozen,
The solid composure
Of sheet-ice and snowman.

The freedom of being becalmed
Going nowhere,
The cruel, locked-in secrets,
The ice-clear exposure.

So, though I am cold now,
I cling to the hoarfrost,
Lost splinters of winter,
The icy dissenters.

And carry on seeking
That strange kind of closure,
The right to freeze over,
Before the lake thaws.

© Eleanor Boulton

Third Prize Winner in the 2025 Enfield Poet’s Poetry Competition